I hate to fail.
I know that's a funny statement - really, who enjoys failure? Yet this is an honest struggle I have. I hate to fail so much that I sometimes quit before something comes to fruition. This I have identified over the years. Sabotage is a weird mind game.
On the eve of a pretty remarkable project development, I am feeling that familiar "bail before you fail" tingling in my gut, stealing my precious sleep.
But this time, I think I will allow myself to see the joy in the journey.
Sure, there are huge hurdles ahead of me:
And I could get pierced by the barbs - the "you're not good enough", "why are you doing this", and "you'll fall flat on your face":
This I have confidence in: I sincerely strive to do what rings in my heart as God-led. I feel a peace in this. Success or failure is pretty miniscule now... the bigger picture is whether I follow His will.
With all my heart, I will.